The End

@THOUGHT OF THE DAY

                   15:::; You learn more about someone at the end of a relationship than at the beginning;It is how the world works we all know that. We all born as a baby without a mask of love,fear,happiness,hate and all the other emotions or feelings. Its all what we've learned from out side world and they did from others. Learning is a perpetual on going thing;never going stop though we try to learn something or not we will keep learning. And about relationship;its all about time. 

                                                                 In the beginning  we face many unusual things and feelings what we never had before;so there's no chance to react in such a way at that time. When things and feelings gets used to then we cant adjust in boundaries with well known things so we all try to push more to make wide area for new things and then happens misunderstanding. Fights and break ups is always simple but after that when we start to remember all the happened things with us;we realize our mistakes, behaviors, words were just a part of the love. But most of the time things gets changed before we realize;we cant even able to try to fix whats went wrong. Thats a sad part of not agnizing our faults before we get penalties;what cost us much pain than we can afford.  Some get chances to convince how and why that happened;for what they feel sorry too but they are not willed to be accepted. Well, its another way how the world turns in surroundings;and its not only happening in relationship by the way it happens in everything. You learn more about something at the end than at the beginning;end brings light to your darkness;may be for a while;but it reveals almost everything you should know.

It Hurts

@THOUGHT OF THE DAY

10::::;; Though my eyes starts to feel the wetness of my tears whenever I see your part in someone else, though I wont let my tears fall out through my eyes and yes it hurts a lot. I have thousands of feelings for you but if you don't want to listen, theres no-one else I would share. I keep these feelings inside me and I feel it everyday. You've never noticed though I cared, there was never less than love but still it doesn't matter to you. Most of the time I ask to myself why is it hurt so much?
why I still feel too much?
why do I care for that person?
and as an answer I used hear a voice
" May be you still love that person"
Sense, heart beats, control, and sometimes I loose myself. And it hurts.

r-EX-pect The Ex

9::::;; You guys might have heard about  this phrase " Every story has two sides, 1st what you know and 2nd what you don't know." but in the story of love;it has four sides 1st you know 2nd what you don't know 3rd what He/She knows 4th what He/She doesn't. In the beginning every love story seems perfect, when things stays unfold;when we gotta face unexperienced notions, thoughts, dreams;what can not  easily understand by brain and that unusual feelings makes us wonder to feel all those impressions/beliefs but when we get used to of all of these then 2nd and 3rd side starts to effect, we start to feel annoying feelings. Small-small things makes huge dramatical issues and when we can not survive we decide to make that one day as our separation day. Then we call them EX;them with whom we used to be in love;to whom we shared our thoughts;on whose shoulder we've cried;whose smile used to make us happiest person in the world;with whom we've been cuddling through all those times when we just needed someone to listen us;think about all those memories do He/She just deserve to call EX; I don't feel so. The time can heal every wounds but sometimes lesion doesn't hurt that much;what does is feelings;we can not deny that we don't think about past's memories though some of us has collide into another relationship;yes we do. Once He/She was our 1st priority;we were willing to do anything to impress them who we were in love with;but now He/She is with someone else that doesn't mean you have to insult them in publicly, socially. Respect that book;everything what you have learned and acknowledged it wouldn't be possible without that book so your first love have taught you what is compatible and what is not. R-EX-spect your loved once. EX literally means former (old) lover.

Everybody Cries

8::::; I have an objection 

First of all human being cries and all of us have an experience of it I know that very well. And about the phrase "Never cry for the person who hurts you." is simply just doesn't suits to any of us cause when there's hurt we feel pain and naturally tears burst out, doesn't it? Or if you were trying to say don't feel/think about that person who hurt you thats not gonna be possible by any chance because when it comes in a case of being hurt  we cant be able to ignore all those pasts moments what brought us together with that person. Will that be so easy to ignore or forget?? I don't think so;Instead of never cry, cry a river once and let the wave to take all the feelings you have in you, its sound better I think;And about "smile with thanking them who hurts us", seriously ??? The person who hurts us never deserve our smile or smiling face. If they got apart thats okay we will feel numb someday and after someday there will be someone who will try to fix our heart with their affection;if we let there will be some. But even more than 100 times better you'd get;you will never ever forget those persons who were close to your heart and you cant,I am sure about this. We all have tried it, didn't we? Though we hate those personality now but somewhere inside we still hope, hope for happen all those things what we've been imagining with those persons. Cause we feel, we feel love, hate, anger, disgust, fear, joy, pain and when pain strike most of us cries who don't they just pretend to not crying but inside they might have been crying insanely.  

Who We Are

7:::;; And here we are again in the case of our life, how life treat us differently in every another situation. Life taught us much more than we wanted to learn;good and bad things too, but we are the who choose to get into it. When we are happy we just live the moment and forgets rest of the world and when we are sad we forget about us and remember all the moments what went unexpectedly wrong. Yes it happens to all of us, some of us can get over it and some of us gets tired of feeling such a feelings. Sometimes when we use to be alone we think and we settle our-selves in very piteous positions, we set our standard so low but deep down we always think of our selves we can fight this fight and win it. We convince us every time when we feel low, most of us believes that what has to happen that will happen. So on we meet new people some of them gets close and some of them gets more close to our heart, some finds way to hurt us in that case and some will be related to our further story. Some tries to make us afraid of getting hurt and some tries to help us to heal from the wound. Some gets jealous of what we have done and some really appreciate for that. Though we know we are not capable of doing everything;we believe that we are worthy of something and that feelings keeps us alive by mentally and feelingly;Because we know who we are and what we are capable of, we are our own inspiration. Don't you think so! 

Good or Bad

6:::;;;Yeah!! You can regret on what you have done;though you regret it, it wont change so simply that you can accept it and step forward into the future. But yes the mistakes, what we have done in earlier days or as I am saying good things that we did for wrong people comes as a visual in our head and that time we feel something very-very bad for our own selves. We think if that would not had happened;our life could be much better than now. You know that people choose wisely, they looks first for their-selves, they are not like us who cares/loves/motivates/believes others more than own selves. What you think??  They were wrong to not to chose us! they were bad for not to listen us! I don't think so, but I think they were very good in this mean world and I believe that they can stick with morality more than us. We cant be like them and we wont ever I know. They were bad but they were good in bad, so guys whatever has had happened;leave it where it happened, let it be; we cant change it;lets live a life and don't ever try to live in past cause nobody can live in the past not even one second. And last thing if you are breathing up all the time;thats not waste of time its worth for living.

Peace

                                                                               5::;; PEACE....... it is the thing what we really don't have in our selves. We have tried lots of times to be calm and stable but when the situations turned into the worst one we lost our patience and reacted as a wild animal. Yes, we did it. At that moment of ires I believe that some parts of our body doesn't synchronize with another one, when mind knows the things and try to convince the heart but the heart doesn't listen to the mind and sometimes when heart feels the things but mind doesn't want to get into it. So, our inner voice gets so noisy that drags us to insanity. We fight most of the time with our selves than others for the things what we expect to happen and we never get satisfying conclusions; if its happens not in the way we thought it would be. Yes, we can ignore others but what after that ??? we have to fight with our own inner voice again, thinking of what if I have said that, what if I have done that, and lots of more whats>>>
Human being only can see, read, think, and talk about it but never can get it. Peace is not a piece of a cake.

Trust

4:;;Trust.... wow
sounds very uncomfortable when it comes to me. It seems like I don't know what it really means cause I never get to understand how, when and why do I have to face with such a word "Trust"?
Sometimes it just takes a inspiring words to come out from deep inside and sometimes it takes thousands of actions, dramas and emotional attachment but still when something bad happens doubts comes on by automatically and it is strange very-very strange I don't know why/how our mind simulates kind a feelings. Is an "Honesty" is a real ??? If it is why we don't find it very often? Why we only hear and read about it? People are not honest even in lying also so what else could we expect from others! May be we never find an another person like us as you as me. Though sometimes we doubt in our selves, sometimes we don't trust in us, its not perpetual thing that stays with us I think. We expect too much from others thats why trust breaks. And this feeling after once it broke, for some people it never comes back, they will never ever become trustworthy as they were once. Just embrace one feeling " Trust yourself that you can trust others and make yourself better so that others can trust you back."

Happy Heart

                                                      3;:: And happy heart knows all the truth of bad feelings cause it has practiced a lot of awful notions to become a happy heart. It always has two side in it, first one is the displaying side which we use to see in smiles of happy people and second on is dark side what we don't see very often in happiness. But that dark side of happy heart knows all the emotions and the fact, what happy people don't shows it to others. Being happy is very hard and keeping happiness is as much hard as keeping breath inside, though we have tried it lots of times and we have failed it every time, to keep it inside for longer time than before. Happiness is like an oxygen everyone needs it and everyone breaths it everyday but we cant get it all in a moment. We have to take it in little-little portion with others emotions as we breath oxygen with other elements. So just try to find goodness in everything with what/whom you are surrounded by, let happiness comes to your door and knock out with loud KNOCKKK'''''''' KNOCCKKKKKK''''. Surprising thing is everyone cant be a happy or you can say everyone cant have a happy heart, cause some of them just pretend to be a happy but actually they are not because pretending doesn't helps every-time. Find something; something that would keep happiness in you doesn't matter whatever is that gonna be. Just pin one thing in your mind you gotta be happy and you can be one.

IF!!!

                           2:;      As ''IF'' never completes the sentence my life has stuck into this two alphabets I and F together ''IF''; if that was, if that is, if that will, its mysterious,isn't it? It can drag you all to the madness as it did to me, so I stopped to think a moment with ''IF''. Its better for you all if you do the same. It will help you to think in a positive ways and lead you to the happening things; not to the dreams. Dreams are not bad, actually its very very good for mind to keep working but day dreams and thinking with "IF" is never gonna be good as I know. All the people from this rational world says follow your dream, make your dreams come true, make a dream and live it. But no-one has an idea to make one cause dream are not real and if you call those thoughts your dream what you have thought while you were bored and lonely; in rational modality with ''IF'' then you are taking wrong way for your dreams cause ''IF''s ways never ends with dreams. Dreams are dreams what never ends.

Your Inner World

                                                             1:;      You all know this sometimes feelings are just don't stays as feelings, sometimes it rolls down through your face, sometimes it takes all night to sleep, sometimes days seems dark, sometimes stars comes close, moon looks bigger, sky fills with clouds and we cant even feel blueness of it for a moment. Feelings are not easy to keep for like forever inside, some people says if you share your feelings with other person the pain will reduced automatically but what if there is no one who can understand you and what if there's no one wants to listen you, thats not written anywhere that anyone can be able to share the secret and all the bad-good inside's stuffs. Do I have to feel kinda notion all my life until my last breath I am afraid I don't know yet because our education world doesn't teach us how to defense our selves from our bad feelings. May be once a day we can have good feelings or more than once but do you ever have tried to count how many times we thought a bad things in a day??? I am sure until unless you read this line no one of you have ever tried it before. Well, everything doesn't comes with price tag as you all can imagine, happiness and sadness are includes in same category what/how and when you have to pay for it no one knows before it happened.